The Worlds of the Petit Lenormand

The First Cards

My introduction to the Petit Lenormand came through my Aunt Elisa. The deck she used was a version of the pattern published by Dondorf, though I describe it as a version advisedly. To this day, I have never been entirely certain who printed the particular copy she owned, nor when it was produced. What I remember clearly, however, is its appearance. The cards were monochrome, with plain brown backs, rather austere by modern standards and entirely without the decorative embellishments that later became commonplace.

“Dondorf” Pattern

She possessed a spare set, although the Cross card was missing a corner and the Park had been creased. It was this deck that eventually found its way into my hands, and I used it throughout much of my childhood and into my early teens. Looking back, it is curious how little attention I paid to such imperfections. The damaged cards seemed no obstacle to reading. They were simply part of the deck, as natural and unremarkable as a crease in a favourite book.

Ship from the abC Lenormand

What strikes me now is that Aunt Elisa never, to the best of my recollection, referred to them as Lenormand cards. More often than not, they were simply the “cards.” Occasionally she would use an expression which, rendered into English, would translate roughly as “little tarot.” They belonged to that curious and rather appealing world of folk practice where precise classifications mattered far less than practical use. There were no discussions of schools, systems, correspondences, or historical lineages. The cards were simply there, brought out when required and put away when they were not.

Indeed, I only learned the name Lenormand much later. As a teenager, I showed the cards to the proprietor of a metaphysical bookshop in Brighton, who eventually identified them and introduced me to the wider tradition from which they came. It was a curious moment. Something that had always felt entirely ordinary and familiar suddenly acquired both a history and a name.

Shortly afterwards, I acquired Erna Droesbeke’s deck and book, which came paired with the now well-known Blaue Eule Lenormand. At the time, I was delighted. Not only did I possess my own copy of the cards, but I also had access to what was the first English-language works on the subject. The accompanying book opened doors that had previously been closed.

Yet, if I am honest, I never formed a real attachment to the deck itself.

The Blaue Eule cards struck me as rather maudlin and overly decorative. Where the old Dondorf pattern possessed a certain restraint and elegance, these seemed fussy, almost twee. They were perfectly serviceable for reading, and many readers remain genuinely fond of them, but I never wholly warmed to their aesthetic. It was perhaps my first lesson in the fact that two decks may contain precisely the same thirty-six symbols and yet evoke entirely different responses in the reader. 

With hindsight, I suspect I spent many years searching for the atmosphere of those first cards.

Landscapes and Memory

In recent years I have increasingly come to the conclusion that one’s first deck, or perhaps more accurately the deck that establishes one’s connection with a system, casts a long shadow over everything that follows. We speak of favourite decks as though our preferences were entirely rational, but I am not convinced they are. The decks to which we are drawn often reflect something of that first meaningful encounter.

I can now see that many of the decks I have subsequently loved share characteristics with the old Dondorf. Over time, I have come to think of them as landscaped Lenormands. By this I mean decks in which the central symbol exists within a wider visual environment rather than floating in isolation against a plain background.

The old Dondorf cards possessed this quality. The Cavalier did not simply appear as a rider, nor the Ship merely as a ship. They inhabited landscapes. There were horizons, buildings, trees, roads, skies, and small incidental details that gave the impression of a living world. When laid out together in a tableau, the cards seemed to belong to the same universe. The eye could wander naturally from one scene to another.

This has remained an important consideration for me ever since. Whilst I appreciate the clarity of decks that emphasise the central symbol alone, they rarely hold my attention for long. I find myself preferring decks that create a sense of place and atmosphere. The cards become not merely symbols but windows into an imagined landscape.

Only recently have I realised how much this preference owes to those first cards. What I once assumed was a matter of taste may, in fact, be a form of memory. The decks that continue to speak to me most strongly are those that, consciously or otherwise, echo the aesthetic qualities of Aunt Elisa’s old cards.

The deck itself may have changed many times. The aesthetic, however, has remained remarkably consistent.

France, Ostend and New Horizon

During my late teens, I spent a great deal of time travelling to France and visiting family in Ostend, Belgium. It was during these journeys that my understanding of the Petit Lenormand began to expand considerably. For the first time, I encountered books and materials that were largely unavailable in English. It was also during this period that I acquired the works of Mary Marco and Jeanine Goffinet, whose influence upon my reading was considerable – not so much card meanings but approach and spreads.

Alongside the books came new decks.

The third Petit Lenormand to enter my life was a Piatnik edition. It was not a new deck when I acquired it and differed in several respects from the versions I later encountered. The Lady and Child cards, in particular, were noticeably different from the patterns with which most readers are familiar today.

I loved it immediately.

The deck possessed a character and atmosphere that appealed to me far more than the Blaue Eule. It felt clearer, more elegant, and somehow more substantial. For a time, it became my preferred deck.

Then things began to go wrong.

Every reading seemed to produce the most unfortunate predictions imaginable. Accidents, deaths, arguments, losses, and difficulties appeared with a monotonous regularity. More curious still were the physical effects that accompanied its use. Whenever I worked with the deck for any significant length of time, I would develop headaches, feelings of nausea, and an overwhelming lethargy.

Viewed from the passage of time, I am reluctant to draw firm conclusions. But I believe(d) that the cards had attracted a low-level entity, or residual energy. 

The situation came to a head following a particularly unpleasant reading. Convinced that something was profoundly amiss, I took the deck some distance from my home and burned it.

Piatnik Lenormand

Whether I was destroying a troublesome object or merely exorcising a youthful fear, I cannot say. 

What I do know is that for many years afterwards I would not even consider purchasing another Piatnik Lenormand. If asked, I would simply say that I did not care for the design and that I had never entirely understood why. It was easier than explaining the real story.

Only in 2018 did I finally revisit the pattern. By then the fears and superstitions of youth had long since faded, and curiosity got the better of me. I purchased another copy. Plus, I knew now the importance of clearing a deck.

To my surprise, I fell in love with the deck.

Not only were the old difficulties absent, but I found it one of the most attractive and readable Lenormands I had ever owned.

The experience taught me a lesson that extends rather beyond card reading. Sometimes we spend years avoiding things because of a single unhappy encounter, only to discover later that it was never the thing itself we feared, but the person we once were when we encountered it.

The deck had not changed nearly as much as the reader. It is now my number two.

Euphemie

It was also during the early years of the new millennium that I met Euphemie Al-Ansari, who became both a teacher and one of the most memorable friends I have known. Her husband was my supervisor.

Paths from the abC Lenormand

Whilst our shared interest in card reading first brought us together, it is not her technical knowledge that I remember most vividly. Rather, it is her friendship, generosity, and unapologetically individual character. Euphemie possessed strong opinions on almost everything and saw little reason to conceal them for the sake of social harmony. In an age increasingly concerned with consensus, she remained refreshingly indifferent to it. She made her own way and I dedicated the Paths in my deck to her.

Curiously, one of the few subjects on which we never reached complete agreement was the question of decks.

Euphemie was the only reader I knew who genuinely preferred the Eule patterns. Most often she worked with the Rote Eule, although from time to time she would return to the Blaue Eule. Her affection for them never diminished, despite my own rather ambivalent feelings.

This experience also leads me to question one of the commonly repeated assumptions within modern Lenormand circles, namely that the Blaue Eule represented some sort of standard continental deck. That was certainly not my experience. Throughout my visits to France and Belgium, and in encounters with readers from Germany and Switzerland, I never encountered anyone using the Blaue Eule. The few readers who favoured an Owl pattern generally used the Rote Eule. Far more commonly I encountered readers working with either the Piatnik or Carta Mundi editions.

With hindsight, I suspect the rise of the Blaue Eule owed less to widespread traditional use than to publishing history. Once Erna Droesbeke’s work was translated and released in French, English, and German alongside the deck itself, the pattern acquired a prominence that it might otherwise never have achieved. Prior to that the Rote Eule (with verses) seems to have been more accessible due to Muller’s licensing.

Whatever our differences regarding decks, Euphemie’s influence upon me was considerable. She constantly reminded me that card reading is ultimately about people rather than cards. Decks matter, certainly, but friendship matters more. Many years later, I remember far more about our conversations than I do about the cards that happened to be on the table.

Changing One’s Mind

The Piatnik deck taught me something else besides the dangers of allowing a single experience to harden into prejudice. It also demonstrated how readily we assume our opinions are final.

As readers, we often imagine that we either understand a deck or we do not. We like it or dislike it, connect with it or fail to connect with it, and assume the matter has been settled permanently. Experience has persuaded me otherwise.

Around 2006, I acquired Regula Fiechter and Urban Trösch’s Mystisches Lenormand. My reaction was decidedly mixed.

On the one hand, I greatly admired the artwork. I have always been fond of tempera as a medium, and there was something about the world Trösch created that I found immensely appealing. The cards possessed atmosphere and depth, hinting at stories unfolding beyond the boundaries of the illustrations. They seemed alive in a way that many modern decks do not.

Yet I struggled with the deck.

The Mystisches Lenormand

The imagery appeared saturated with symbolism and interpretative choices that I did not entirely understand. Whilst I continued to use it from time to time, partly because I had by then learned the value of keeping a second working deck to hand, I never felt wholly comfortable with it. Certain design decisions puzzled me, and I frequently found myself wondering what had motivated them. Eventually, I concluded that the deck simply was not for me.

Many years later, however, I encountered Regula Fiechter’s accompanying text.

Reading her explanations transformed the deck completely.

Questions that had lingered unresolved for years were suddenly answered. Choices that had once appeared arbitrary revealed themselves to be thoughtful and deliberate. The deck had not changed, but my understanding of it certainly had.

Time has persuaded me that I had made a common mistake. I assumed that a deck should reveal itself immediately to the reader. Sometimes precisely the opposite is true.

Certain decks require patience.

They demand context, study, and a willingness to approach them on their own terms rather than expecting them to conform to ours. What I had once dismissed as unnecessary complexity gradually revealed itself as richness.

The experience reminded me that our judgements frequently say as much about ourselves as they do about the objects we judge. As readers, we change. Our knowledge deepens, our interests evolve, and our points of reference shift. A deck that seems opaque at one stage of life may become entirely intelligible at another.

The Mystisches Lenormand taught me many things, but perhaps the most valuable lesson was intellectual humility.

Not every failure to understand is a defect in the deck.

Sometimes it is simply an invitation to look again.

My Lenormand

After the Piatnik incident, I eventually found myself gravitating towards the cards published by Carta Mundi under the title Jeu Lenormand Cartes de Bonne Aventure. These were the cards illustrated in the books of Mary Marco and Erna Droesbeke’s La Divination par les Cartes du Petit Lenormand. Much of the literature available to me employed this pattern, and it was also the deck most commonly used by the readers I encountered.

There was something immediately charming about it.

The illustrations possessed a simplicity and directness that appealed to me, and before long I had developed a genuine affection for the deck.

I generally used the version containing French verses, although I have also worked with editions containing German and Dutch text. Their presence never troubled me in the slightest, nor did they appear to concern my friends, family, or clients. On the contrary, they seemed an entirely natural part of the deck’s character and atmosphere.

Jeu Lenormand by Cartamundi

From approximately 1996 until 2010, this was the Petit Lenormand with which I conducted all my readings. I still perform the overwhelming majority of readings with it.

It remains my Lenormand. The version I use now is my third.

Although I greatly admired the Dondorf pattern, I always associated it strongly with my aunt. In a curious way, it felt like her deck rather than mine. Whenever I worked with it, I occasionally found myself wondering whether my interpretations departed from hers and, as a consequence, second-guessing my own judgement.

The Carta Mundi deck, by contrast, gradually became my own companion.

It allowed me to develop an independent relationship with the cards and a reading style that was distinctly my own.

Looking back, I suspect this was an important stage in my development as a reader. However much we may learn from our teachers and family, there comes a point at which we must cease reading through another person’s eyes and learn to trust our own. 

I sometimes wonder what Aunt Elisa would have made of the directions my reading eventually took. We shared the same thirty-six cards, but we did not share the same life. Inevitably, our readings differed. Yet perhaps that is precisely how traditions survive. They are not preserved through imitation alone, but through adaptation. Each generation receives something and then quietly makes it its own.

The old Dondorf taught me how to read.

The Carta Mundi taught me how to read for myself.

Dialects of a Common Language

In recent years, the C. L. Wüst pattern has become one of my particular favourites, especially in the excellent restoration produced by The Wandering Oracle. There is something about its balance of clarity, atmosphere, and visual narrative that continues to reward repeated use. Like the old Dondorf, it inhabits a world rather than merely displaying a sequence of symbols. The cards feel lived in. One senses roads beyond the paths, towns beyond the horizon, and stories unfolding just outside the frame.

Nieuwe Lenormand

Yet, contrary to what some might suppose, I have never been one of those readers who believes that only historical decks deserve attention. On the contrary, some of the modern interpretations have given me enormous pleasure over the years. Erna Droesbeke’s Nieuwe Lenormand has long occupied a special place in my collection. I lost my first copy in Egypt and was genuinely bereft! Droesbeke manages a difficult balancing act, remaining recognisably Lenormand whilst also possessing a distinctive personality of its own.

Rana George Lenormand & Gilded Reverie Lenormand

Likewise, I continue to return to Ciro Marchetti’s Gilded Reverie Lenormand and Rana George’s beautiful deck. Both demonstrate that innovation need not come at the expense of tradition. The former offers a richly realised visual world, whilst the latter combines practicality with elegance in a way I have always admired. Plus, Callie L. French’s art captures why we all love Rana!

More recently, I have become particularly enamoured with Irene Captijn’s seasonal Lenormand decks. They possess a warmth and atmosphere that I find immensely appealing. There is a gentleness to them, an attention to season, light, and place, that makes reading with them a distinctly pleasurable experience. Even the liberal use of pink doesn’t bother me! They also remind me that the Lenormand tradition remains a living one. New voices continue to join the conversation, and occasionally one encounters a deck that feels both fresh and familiar at the same time.

Irene Captijn’s Spring, Summer and Autumn Lenormands

It is often assumed that I solely utilise decks which retain the playing-card inserts and, in truth, I generally do. Nevertheless, I have never excluded those that omit them. Whether depicted on the card or not, the Stars remain the Six of Hearts, the Paths remains the Queen of Diamonds, and the Child is still the Valet of Spades. The underlying playing-card correspondences do not cease to exist merely because they are not illustrated.

Consequently, the absence of the inserts does not prevent the cartomante from noting suit predominance, multiples, evaluating suit balance, or recognising the manifestation of particular court cards within a reading. These relationships remain part of the deck’s structure regardless of whether they are visually represented.

What is lost, however, is the ability to utilise the regards of the court cards. This can be a remarkably useful technique, adding nuance, clarification, and an additional layer of dialogue between the cards. Whilst I do not consider it indispensable, I do regard it as one of the genuine advantages of decks that display the inserts in full.

It is not, however, a decisive consideration. I continue to use and enjoy decks such as the Mystisches Lenormand, Gilded Reverie Lenormand, Summer Serenade Lenormand, and Autumn Embrace Lenormand, and Lo Scarabeo’s version of the Schneider & Co, despite their omission of the inserts. As with so much in cartomancy, what is gained in one area is often balanced by something gained elsewhere.

WanderWüst & Lo Scarabeo’s Schneider & Co

Over the years I have gradually come to view the various Petit Lenormands as gateways into a much larger universe. Each deck is recognisably Lenormand, yet each speaks with its own accent.

The relationship is rather like that between countries sharing a common language. The fundamental grammar remains the same, but the vocabulary, idioms, and rhythms differ from one place to another. The Game of Hope established the mother tongue from which all subsequent Lenormands descend. Since then, each artist and publisher has contributed a regional dialect of their own.

But they all remain recognisably members of the same family.

A reader who moves between decks soon discovers this for himself. One deck may prove direct and economical, another expansive and descriptive. One may emphasise atmosphere, another precision. One may feel rooted in the nineteenth century, another quite contemporary. Yet all remain mutually intelligible to those willing to learn their nuances.

I increasingly suspect that the deck with which we form the deepest connection is often the one whose language feels most natural to us. Its symbols become familiar, its peculiarities cease to seem peculiar, and eventually it begins to feel less like a set of cards and more like a native tongue.

We may learn many other dialects throughout our lives, and we may even come to love them, but there is usually one deck through which we think most naturally and to which we instinctively return. 

For me, that deck remains the old Carta Mundi Jeu Lenormand Cartes de Bonne Aventure.

It is not necessarily the finest Lenormand ever produced, nor the most beautiful. Others may surpass it in historical significance, artistic merit, or technical sophistication.

It is simply the language in which I learned to speak Lenormand for myself.

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Images:

Jeu Lenormand © Cartamundi, WanderWüst © Jorge/Wandering Oracle, Gilded Reverie Lenormand © US Games Systems, Inc. Rana George Lenormand © US Games Systems, Inc. Nieuwe Lenormand © Amber Studio/Erna Droesbeke, Lenormand 36 Orakelspielkarten © Königsfurt-Urania, Sweet Blossom Lenormand © Königsfurt-Urania, Summer Serenade © Königsfurt-Urania, Autumn’s Embrace Lenormand © Königsfurt-Urania, Lenormand Oracle © Lo Scarabeo, Mystisches Lenormand © Königsfurt-Urania.

Fate, Freedom and the Eternal Present

One often hears discussions of fate and free will framed as though they were incompatible ideas. We are invited to choose between a universe governed by destiny and a universe governed by freedom, as if the existence of one necessarily excludes the other.

I have never found the opposition convincing.

Part of the difficulty, I suspect, arises from the fact that human beings experience reality through time. Our lives unfold sequentially. We move from yesterday to today and from today to tomorrow. We remember the past, experience the present, and anticipate the future. This process is so familiar that we rarely stop to question it.

Consequently, we tend to imagine that reality itself must be organised in precisely the same manner.

St Augustine, Public domain, via Wikimedia Commons

Yet Christian theology has traditionally taken a rather different view.

When theologians speak of God as eternal, they do not merely mean that He has existed for an exceptionally long time. Eternity is not an infinite extension of the clock. God is not ancient in the way that a mountain or a civilisation might be ancient. Rather, God exists beyond time altogether. The divine perspective is not one of endless duration but of what theologians have often described as an eternal present, a reality within which all moments are held together.

For us there is a distinction between yesterday, today, and tomorrow. For God there is only the eternal now.

This is, of course, difficult to imagine because every human thought is conditioned by temporal experience. We know what it means to wait. We know what it means to remember. We know what it means to anticipate. Yet God neither waits for the future nor recalls the past. The entirety of creation exists immediately before Him.

What appears to us as future therefore remains future only from our own limited perspective.

At first glance this may appear to threaten the idea of free will. After all, if God sees all things, is anything truly free?

I would suggest precisely the opposite.

The common assumption is that freedom consists in the ability to control events. Yet very little in life is actually subject to our control. We do not choose the era into which we are born. We do not choose our families, our natural talents, our physical limitations, or many of the circumstances that shape our lives. Even the most powerful individuals discover that events frequently refuse to conform to their wishes.

If freedom means absolute control, then none of us is truly free.

The classical Christian tradition understands freedom rather differently. Freedom is not the capacity to do whatever one pleases. Rather, it is the exercise of reason and the ability to choose the good. St Augustine repeatedly returns to this theme. Human beings are most free, not when they pursue every passing desire, but when their desires are rightly ordered.

In this sense, free will is not simply choosing between alternatives. It is learning to choose wisely.

The Neoplatonic thinkers developed a similar understanding. For Marsilio Ficino and Giovanni Pico della Mirandola, the soul possesses the freedom to direct itself. It may turn towards what is higher or towards what is lower. It may pursue wisdom or folly. Yet this freedom exists within an ordered cosmos whose ultimate source and destination remain divine.

Cristofano dell’Altissimo, Public domain, via Wikimedia Commons

Indeed, I have often wondered whether many disputes concerning fate and free will arise because the word destiny is misunderstood.

Destiny is frequently imagined as a script from which no deviation is possible, a rigid sequence of events imposed upon the individual irrespective of their choices. Such a conception has never appealed to me. It portrays human beings as little more than actors reciting lines.

Providence, as I understand it, is something quite different.

A traveller may know the destination of a journey without knowing every step that will be taken along the way. There are roads that lead directly towards the goal and roads that wander. There are delays, diversions, wrong turns, and unexpected discoveries. Yet the existence of a destination does not eliminate the reality of choice.

Life seems to me rather similar.

Our ultimate destiny is union with the Good, which is God. How we respond to that calling, however, remains a matter of freedom. Thus destiny and free will are not enemies. They are complementary realities that can only be properly understood in relation to one another.

It is perhaps no coincidence that this understanding has also shaped my approach to divination.

Many people imagine that fortune telling concerns itself solely with fixed predictions. One asks what will happen and expects a definitive answer. Yet that has never been my experience.

At its best, divination reveals patterns rather than certainties. It illuminates tendencies, influences, opportunities, obstacles, and possibilities. It helps us understand the forces at work in a situation and the directions in which events may be moving. It does not abolish choice any more than a weather forecast abolishes the freedom to carry an umbrella.

Indeed, I often think that divination and fortune telling are best understood as two aspects of a single activity. Divination concerns itself with causes, influences, and underlying realities. Fortune telling concerns itself with the events and effects that emerge from them. One asks why and in what direction; the other asks what follows.

Both are valuable. Neither is complete without the other.

The older I become, the less interested I am solely in the question, “What will happen?”

Important though it may appear, it is rarely the deepest question.

Far more interesting are the questions that lie beneath it. More and more I want know why and:

  • How ought I to respond?
  • What is being asked of me?
  • What virtues are required in this situation?
  • Am I moving closer to the good or further away from it?
  • What kind of person am I becoming?

These are questions that concern saints and philosophers no less than astrologers and card readers.

Whether one consults cards, studies stars, reads scripture, or simply reflects in silence, the ultimate purpose is not merely to know the future. It is to understand it with wisdom and grow in wisdom.

Perhaps that is why I continue to find both theology and divination so fascinating. Each, in its own way, reminds us that our lives form part of a larger story, one whose meaning cannot be reduced to the next event or the next decision.

We travel through time moment by moment. God sees the whole journey at once.

And somewhere between those two perspectives, human freedom finds its place.

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Images:

Featured Image:

Crawford, Will, 1869-1944, artist; Glackens, L. M. (Louis M.), 1866-1933, artist; Ehrhart, S. D. (Samuel D.), approximately 1862-1937, artist, Public domain, via Wikimedia Commons

 

Divination, Providence, and My Return to Faith

One question I am frequently asked is how I reconcile my practice of divination with my Catholic faith.

The honest answer is that I am not entirely certain that I can.

The Holy Church has long expressed serious concerns regarding divinatory practices, particularly where they are used to seek power over the future or to obtain knowledge apart from God. I respect those concerns and take them seriously. Indeed, I cannot entirely dismiss the possibility that one day I may cease practising astrology and divination altogether.

Yet honesty also requires me to acknowledge another fact: divination played a significant role in my return to Christianity.

Had my experience of divination encouraged superstition, pride, or a rejection of God, perhaps I would feel differently. Yet when I look back over my life, I find the opposite to be true. Divination repeatedly drew my attention towards Providence rather than away from it. It encouraged reflection rather than certainty, humility rather than control, and ultimately brought me back to prayer, theology, and the Church.

For many people, divination is assumed to concern solely the prediction of future events. My own experience has been different. Whilst future-oriented questions certainly arise, and readings do identify the trajectory of events, some of the most meaningful readings were those that revealed a pattern, clarified a situation, challenged an assumption, or illuminated a responsibility. They did not merely address what might happen, but also why it was happening.

Looking back, the most valuable readings were rarely those that accurately anticipated future events. Rather, they were the ones that exposed blind spots, corrected faulty thinking, or revealed relationships between events that I had previously failed to recognise. Their value lay less in prediction than in discernment.

This distinction is important because the temptation condemned throughout Scripture is often not knowledge itself, but the desire to control what belongs to God. There is a profound difference between asking “How can I gain power over the future?” and asking “What am I failing to see in the present?”

The latter is much closer to contemplation than manipulation.

The Greek Fathers frequently emphasised that creation itself reveals divine truths. Saint Basil the Great, Saint Gregory of Nazianzus, and Saint Gregory of Nyssa all regarded the created world as capable of leading the soul towards God. Creation was not merely an object to be observed but a reality through which divine wisdom could be contemplated.

St Gregory of Nyssa, http://www.svetigora.com/node/909, Public domain, via Wikimedia Commons

Saint Gregory of Nyssa, in particular, understood the spiritual life as a continual movement into deeper understanding. Human beings never fully exhaust the mystery of God. Instead, they grow through participation, reflection, and contemplation. That idea has always resonated with me. The purpose of spiritual life is not mastery but transformation.

Likewise, Saint Augustine’s understanding of signs influenced me greatly. The world is not mute. We continually encounter symbols, stories, images, coincidences, and experiences that invite reflection upon deeper realities. My interest in Tarot developed along similar lines. I came to see the cards less as mechanisms of prediction and more as images through which contemplation becomes possible.

Perhaps this is why the concept of the eikōn became so important in my own work. Growing up amongst Eastern Catholics and Orthodox Christians, I was surrounded by icons. The icon was never merely a picture. It was a means of contemplation, a visible image directing the mind towards an invisible reality.

Over time, I came to approach the Tarot in a similar fashion.

This does not mean that Tarot cards are icons. They are not. Yet the habit of contemplation fostered by iconography profoundly shaped the way I read them. The image became more important than prediction, and meaning became more important than certainty.

This emphasis upon discernment is one reason why the writings of Thomas Merton have always resonated with me. Merton repeatedly warned against the false self: the collection of ambitions, fears, attachments, and illusions through which we often misperceive both ourselves and God. For Merton, contemplation was not about acquiring secret knowledge, but about learning to see reality more clearly.

In a very limited and imperfect way, this reflects my own experience of divination. The readings that mattered most were not those that provided certainty about the future, but those that challenged my assumptions and forced me to confront truths I would otherwise have preferred to ignore. They encouraged self-examination rather than self-importance, and reflection rather than control.

Another unexpected consequence of divination was that it strengthened my conviction that truth exists independently of my own wishes and preferences.

We live in an age increasingly shaped by relativism and, at times, a subtle form of solipsism. It is easy to imagine that reality is whatever we decide it to be, or that our feelings determine the truth of a situation. Yet my experience of divination repeatedly challenged such assumptions.

Many of the most valuable readings were not those that confirmed what I wanted to hear. Quite the opposite. They often forced me to confront perspectives I would have preferred to ignore. They revealed uncomfortable realities, exposed self-deception, and highlighted consequences that I had failed to consider.

In this respect, divination frequently acted as a corrective to my own subjectivity.

No matter how one understands the mechanism involved, a successful reading requires the reader to submit to something beyond themselves. The cards, symbols, or astrological configurations must be interpreted according to their nature rather than bent to suit personal desires. Over time, this fostered a growing appreciation for the existence of objective realities that remain true whether I happen to like them or not.

Perhaps this is one reason why divination ultimately drew me towards rather than away from Christianity. The Christian faith is founded upon the conviction that truth is not created by the individual. Reality is not something we invent but something we discover. We are called not to construct our own world, but to conform ourselves to the truth revealed by God.

For all its dangers and limitations, divination repeatedly reminded me that I was not the centre of reality. The world did not revolve around my desires, my fears, or my preferred narratives. Again and again it pointed beyond myself towards patterns, responsibilities, and truths that demanded recognition whether I welcomed them or not.

In that sense, it served not to reinforce the self, but to diminish it. And that, I have come to suspect, is often the beginning of genuine spiritual growth.

Marsilio Ficino (detail), Domenico Ghirlandaio, Public domain, via Wikimedia Commons

Amongst later thinkers, Marsilio Ficino exerted a particular influence upon me. Like many Renaissance Christians, he believed that the cosmos reflected an underlying order established by God. He did not see creation as devoid of meaning but as filled with traces of divine wisdom. The world was intelligible because it proceeded from an intelligible Creator.

Giovanni Pico della Mirandola was equally important, though he reached different conclusions in certain respects. Pico’s defence of human freedom and dignity left a lasting impression upon me. Whilst sceptical of many astrological claims, he nevertheless wrestled with profound questions concerning Providence, destiny, and free will.

Although they differed in many ways, both Ficino and Pico grappled with questions that remain central to my own thinking:

• How does Providence operate?
• How much freedom do we possess?
• What is the relationship between destiny and choice?

Those questions are also central to divination.

When I reflect upon the readings that mattered most in my life, I do not find a story of fate imposed from above. Rather, I find repeated invitations to responsibility. Again and again the cards seemed to direct my attention towards circumstances requiring wisdom, patience, forgiveness, humility, or courage.

In that sense, divination drew me closer to Providence rather than away from it.

At the heart of all these reflections lies a conviction that has grown stronger with age: whatever wisdom, success, talents, opportunities, or blessings I possess do not originate in me.

Pope Saint John XXIII expressed this beautifully:

“Who am I? Where do I come from? Where am I going? I am nothing. Everything I possess… was given me by God.”

The older I become, the more profoundly true those words seem.

One of the most unexpected lessons divination taught me was precisely this. Contrary to the common assumption that divination encourages self-importance or the illusion of control, my own experience was quite the opposite. Again and again, it reminded me how little control I truly possess. It repeatedly directed my attention away from myself and towards a larger order that I neither created nor fully understand.

Looking back over many years of readings, I find myself increasingly convinced that everything ultimately comes from God. What we call coincidences, opportunities, setbacks, talents, relationships, and even apparent accidents often reveal themselves, in retrospect, to be part of a larger providential pattern.

This does not mean that human freedom is an illusion. On the contrary, thinkers such as Pico della Mirandola placed enormous importance upon freedom precisely because human beings must choose how they respond to Providence. We are not puppets moved by fate, nor are we isolated individuals inventing our own reality.

Rather, it seems to me that fulfilment lies in the co-operation of freedom and Providence.

Human beings possess free will, yet that freedom is not merely the ability to choose arbitrarily. Its highest expression is the ability to choose the good. When we orient ourselves towards what is true, good, and beautiful, we gradually move towards the purpose for which we were created.

In that sense, I have come to think of destiny not as a chain that restricts freedom, but as the fulfilment that becomes possible when freedom is rightly exercised.

Divination never taught me that the future was fixed. What it often seemed to reveal, however, were those moments when I was either moving towards or away from my own good. Its value lay not in removing responsibility, but in deepening it.

For that reason, I cannot separate my experience of divination from my belief in Providence. Far from persuading me that I was master of my own fate, it repeatedly reminded me that my life forms part of a much larger story, one whose author is ultimately God.

My spiritual life has also been shaped profoundly by several saints. Saint John the Evangelist’s emphasis upon love and the indwelling presence of God remains deeply important to me. Saint Benedict’s balance of prayer, work, humility, and discipline continues to inform my understanding of the spiritual life.

Likewise, Saint Benoît-Joseph Labre has long fascinated me. His life stands as a reminder that holiness is not measured by status, success, or worldly achievement. Indeed, God’s Providence is often found in precisely those places society overlooks.

If divination has taught me anything, it is not certainty but uncertainty. It has repeatedly reminded me how limited my perspective truly is. The more I practise it, the less convinced I become that human beings can control their destinies through technique, formula, or secret knowledge.

What I have come to believe, however, is that Providence is real.

Looking backwards, many of the apparent accidents and coincidences of my life now seem woven into a larger pattern. I cannot prove that claim. Nor do I expect others to accept it merely because I believe it. Yet it remains my experience.

Most unexpectedly of all, that pattern led me back to the Church.

For that reason, I find myself living with a tension. I respect the Church’s teachings and understand the dangers it identifies. I acknowledge that there may come a time when my convictions develop further and my practices change accordingly.

Yet I cannot deny the path by which I arrived here.

For now, I see divination not as a replacement for faith, but as one of the many unexpected roads by which Providence led me home. Everything I do, I do it Faith in God. That includes divination.

Ultimately, I do not claim to possess a final answer to the question of divination and faith. I remain a traveller rather than an authority. What I can say, however, is that my journey has consistently revealed a world that is meaningful rather than meaningless, ordered rather than chaotic, and guided by Providence rather than blind chance alone. Divination did not teach me to trust in cards, stars, or secret knowledge. Rather, it taught me to look beyond them. It taught me that truth exists independently of my desires, that freedom carries responsibility, and that fulfilment is found not in imposing my will upon the world but in conforming myself to the Good. If one day I am led to leave divination behind, I hope I shall do so with gratitude. For whatever its place in my future, it was one of the instruments by which God drew me back to Himself.

Perhaps this is why I have always referred to myself as a student rather than an expert. The longer I have studied divination, astrology, theology, and life itself, the more aware I have become of the limits of my own understanding. Every reading that proved meaningful reminded me not of my knowledge, but of my ignorance; not of my powers, but of my dependence upon truths greater than myself. For this reason, I have never believed there are true experts in such matters, only fellow travellers who have spent longer reflecting upon them. Divination, at its best, taught me humility before my own limitations and failings, whilst simultaneously revealing the beauty of a Providence that continues to guide, correct, and teach us despite them.

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Ludovico Carracci, Allegory of Providence, Public domain, via Wikimedia Commons

Author’s Reading Corner, August 2026